Day 7 - barely

So quiet...feel I could sink into this abyss and go unnoticed, heart and mind shattering the whole way...is there anyone listening, anywhere? I wonder, is it better to sink into delusion, think people are here and aware, than its is to face isolation...to face the soul-less masses in a blaze of glory, blades & blood, or fade away... I spend a lot of time like this, alone, hoping for a future with more. Those I love are in my heart, but miles can blur..things go wrong best I could hope is to head towards them or meet in middle, otherwise its me & me.. Countless people have asked that, I'm sure I'm not the first or the last.. can anyone hear me?