I knew this journey would be multi-faceted and include changes in my perception about how people live. Little did I know how quickly, or dramatically, this would happen.
Spent almost half the weekend in a miserable, bitchy mood, angry at almost everyone or everything. I did my little Thanksgiving for 1, tried to dig out the holiday decorations and spirit. Ended up so angry I wanted to throw ornaments (at least they are plastic) around the apartment. Really, furious rage at a stinking ornament.
Took me a while to figure out the problem - disgust with consumerism, outrageous levels of consumption and mass production. Most of all, disappointment with myself for participating. I will still decorate, but more vintage and in my own personal style.
As far as gifts, promises to communicate more with family and friends. Those would be the things that matter, not toys or video games or electronics, that could keep us all alive in the end. Just a little thought to munch on...
As a maybe healer, I should also start looking into alternative methods. Which is something I've always been interested in.
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